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Name: Sabrina
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Catoosa County
Birthday: 10/16/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Anything that'll keep my attention for more then 5 minutes...
Expertise: Dancing with black girls! You would of never of guessed
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  sabbypoo07
Member Since:
3/15/2004
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| SO my Brady left me for Spain. =[ which sucks, because now I don't get to see him until Aug. 5th when I pick him up from the airport!
Things have been a little rough for me lately, it has just been a series of crappy events, besides me and Brady doing extremely well, everything else is kind of sucking. Well not everything but I feel weird about a lot of stuff now. I guess it is because things are weird between me and Ryan and now I really can't hang out with all his friends, because he is always around them, and a lot of people wont even be in Milledgeville for the month of July... gez what am I going to do with myself.
I just can't wait until august. Oh i also have this problem, with this person, whom I really don't even know. they have decided though that they would like to keep doing things to get under my skin, partly because they are mad that their ex has moved on and they no longer are the center of attention. anyways though besides that....
I miss brady and can't wait for him to come back.
sabs | | |
| I'm having a rough time.
I think I am doing the right thing... I don't want to regret it later on in life.
Im letting God take total control of my life. It is so scary giving up everything and going from the driver's seat to the passenger's. It's scary to know that I wont have control and I don't know whats going to happen. To me this is a huge risk and I am scared of being lonely and alone; but then I think that God has something amazing in store for me. It's so unbelievable that he has this amazing life in store for me and that eventually everything will be perfect and okay.
Im trying to keep my head up.
Things will be okay. Sometimes they get hard though. And i know that even though it hurts; its what i need to do to have a closer relationship with God and to know him better and become closer to him and listen to what he is telling me. i've been ignoring him and thats wrong and horrible and i need to stop doing what i want and just let his will take me over. | | |
| I don't really know why I tried so hard.
It's like I used so much energy, time, and gave so much love only for it to be pushed aside. I mean parts of this are my fault, but I felt so... unloved. It just sucks to know that you try so freakin hard at something, you try your best to make it work and in the end, its nothing. It means nothing and your just someone.
I've been praying about this whole thing, and even though it still stings a little bit everytime I think about it, I've learned it will be okay. God has something so very important for me in my life, and as long as I give him my faith and have trust in him, He wont lead me astray.
I mean I guess not much has changed since towards the end it was exactly like it is now, but still... the thought of everything makes it hard. I welcome this sting, this hurt though. It's not horrible, it's not something I'll complain about, everyone goes through it; but one day it will heal, and one day, I'll be so amazingly happy and I will know why. I will know exactly why.
Thanks friends. You make me smile
♥ sabby | | |
| Life has been getting better everyday. Yes there are those occasional days where I get lonely but as for the usual, its good.
Hookah fun, its my new passion thanks to Kevin Ekmark. Me, Kevin, and John definitely hit the lights, turned on some new Incubus, put some pimp sunglasses on and chilled with the Mint flavored Hookah. It was beautiful, I wont lie. I think I can buy one from this guy at West Georgia for about 35 bucks which is freakin awesome; so we'll see how that goes.
"Love on the rocks with no ice..."
I went to church yesterday morning, and it ended up being the situation that none of my friends were there nor anyone i even knew. I was sitting alone, thinking someone might come late and sit with me, and I started getting this empty feeling in myself. Its been there for awhile and Im not really sure what to do to get rid of it. So this girl named Holly comes and sits next to me and shakes my hand and asks if i'd like to come sit with her and her friend. That one act right there, made my whole day and let me know there are wonderful and nice people who do care in this world. It took a little bit of that emptiness away.
After church, i found out i wouldn't get to see brady at all so i was sort of alone for the day, instead of sitting on my butt doing nothing, i just walked to my car and drove 2 hours to UWG to see some friends. Stayed there until about 9:30ish and then left to go back home. I know its a lot of driving just to hang out but man it was awesome. One of my best friends goes there and to be able to just see him for a few seconds was well worth the trip. His girlfriend is definitely real nice too.. i had to meet her to approve. she got an A.
Well off to class.. finals week! woo hooo
sabrina | | |
| I had a great conversation with a friend tonight. It was one of those conversations that let you know that there is always someone to talk to, you don't have to keep all your feelings bottled up. Today i thought about something, not because I don't like my current situation, because I love it and wouldn't change it for the world, but because I was curious. There are people that I have thrown to the side in my life, there are boys that i've dumped, and people who's hearts have been broken by me and i stop and wonder why. I wonder why I did some of the things I did to people. I wonder why i dumped certain people and I wonder if who i am today has something to do with it. Its hard sometimes to know that you put someone through any sort of pain. It's just hard to accept. I never meant to hurt anyone. I know they've moved on and so have I, but it helps me to be sure that they know it wasn't something bad about them. I believe a life long chemistry between two people is so hard to come by today and I hope i've found it. I hope they find it. I hope they don't have any hard feelings towards me; and I hope that i can forgive those who have dumped or left or lost touch with me. Its weird that I feel that, but just thinking about it, it makes me feel better to apologize.
On another note: Sabrina gets to go to New York for New Years! Brady will be up there with his family so I get to go up the last week he will be up there and spend the week up there; and just ride back home with him in the car! Im so excited just because I think Im going to get to see snow which will make the winter all the more better. I'll get to see the city, which i love to death, and spend time with brady over the break.
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